OLTL Commentaries - "REFLECTIONS BY JILL"

OKAY, I have just about had it with watching Kevin show up everywhere drunk all the time. I know he is grieving and he is trying to escape from the fact that he has lost his son-that he chose to save Kelly first-that Duke will never have a chance to live his life - and that he will never have grandchildren to bounce on his knee. Admittedly, Kevin has a right to his mourning and grief-but the drinking is really getting on my nerves. I was hoping that after the stupor he drank himself into several years ago when Grace died, he’d possibly recognize what a waste it is to bury himself in the bottle but I guess he doesn’t want to try to feel better-he can’t deal with his guilt when he’s sober. It’s a terrible situation that he is in, but I’m tired of watching him deal with everyone while he’s under the influence, like Viki and Kelly.

And now Kelly is pregnant. Well, that’s a big surprise-NOT! I guess the biggest surprise is going to come when she finds out that Kevin is the baby’s father and not Duke-at least that’s what we’re being led to believe. How is Kevin going to react to that little bit of information? Will he put aside his hatred of the fact that Kelly slept with his son? He certainly didn’t make it easy for Kelly to talk to him at the cemetery, did he? I didn’t blame her for not being able to tell him that she’s pregnant. And I hope more than anything that if Kevin wants to make amends, Kelly doesn’t just take him back with open arms. I think Kevin has been very cruel to Kelly-even before she slept with Duke-and I think she deserves better than the abuse she’s had to take from him.

I’m sure Kelly could have lived without seeing that box of Ace’s clothing that Kevin brought over to her. She doesn’t need Kevin to keep pointing out to her that she can have children in her future and he can’t. I was glad that she made a point of telling him that those clothes were being saved for a baby she was going to have with him.

Hugh was very nice to Kelly when he found her crying in the park. He earned a few points back from me for that-.especially when he put his phone number into her cell phone and said she could call him any time if she needed a friend. I feel sorry for Kelly-maybe I shouldn’t-but with how bad she feels about Duke’s death-and how well I think Heather Tom conveys grief-I just can’t help myself. I feel Kelly’s pain a lot more than I feel Kevin’s.

Well, we knew that Lindsay was going to witness the kiss between RJ and Nora. And I had to laugh when Lindsay’s old insecurities came out in full force. But hey, what else was she supposed to think? Being Lindsay, there was nothing else she could do but be jealous and furious with Nora. I died laughing when she was talking to Hugh about her feelings and said, “How do I compete with a medical miracle? What, am I supposed to do, chop off a limb?” It was good to see a bit of the old Lindsay back. And good old Nora-she could see right through Lindsay when she came in to drag RJ out of the hospital and end his visit with her. I loved it when a very determined Nora said to herself, “I’ll show that bitch!” And there goes Hugh again-consoling two women in the same day-Kelly and Lindsay-boy, he’s scoring points left and right. Actually, I think Hugh and Kelly make a nice couple. I wouldn’t mind seeing them pursue a relationship.

I thought Paige and Nora had a good visit-better than the last one where Nora collapsed. It was a comfort to Nora that she could see how much Matthew meant to Paige and how much Paige helped him when Nora was in the coma. It’s nice to see Paige owning up to what she’s done and willing to take her punishment. I think it’s just too little, too late. I don’t think I want to see her have a future with Bo. I think he deserves better and I hate the fact that he takes any blame at all in the failure of his relationship with Paige. He begged her so many times to come clean with him and vowed to help her with whatever she was hiding. Bo is right-she didn’t trust him and I give him credit for even being willing to try starting over with her, but I want better for him. I wonder what kind of sentence, if any, she’s going to get from the Atlantic City police. And it was good that she mentioned that maybe when she comes back she can be with her son. So many people, including myself, are left hanging wondering if we’re ever going to get back to the story of Paige and Spencer’s son.

I thought it was great that Evangeline decided to be the lead counsel in Bo’s case. I like that Evangeline is learning to live with her blindness and remain independent and she’s smart not to rely on Cristian too much to be her eyes-.even though he would lovingly do anything for her.